I just really want to  find and be able to find a nice balance of myself. Its hard for me though. I feel im so capable of dynamics that is hard to gauge myself down.  Even in attempts as I do such things I fell like I suppress myself. I just want to figure a level that I can continue as good without compromising my truth’s.  I just have a hard figure, Differentiating for myself the line between my Truth and my progression above it.  I guess I dont know how to leave it behind.   I feel an ignorance to how to represent my self above ignorance, when my derives are from so much ignorance.  how can I express myself above crazy when I’ve derived from craziness! when, If Ever, can I declare myself to be GOOD, when Im from so much BAD?  
At this point in time I feel really Good about myself and the things im persuing right now. but Its such an unfamiliar ground that I dont even trust it! I feel so much nervous energy boiling and that wants to show color! and fuck something up!   U know how your ears suppsedly ring when somebody thinking about you.? I feel like Satan is thinking about me right now and setting a trap up for me.  Should I ignore it and concentrate on my current happiness or address it and fight it? or is that the trap? I really dont know… I feel a slight bit of my crazy creeping up on me. I just ask God to continue in his favor
“crazy” adj.. defintion
 5. Informal . intensely anxious or eager; impatient:
8.  likely to break or fall to pieces.




About The Gritz

Ideally I aspire to be a Tyranny of Business and perspective. I cant tell you descriptively how I feel... so I'll tell you the depths of my thought. thanks for reading.

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