“YOu ARE Here” (navigation Voice)
Man I’m tryna sort a lot of issues right now. A lot of issues of MYSELF. I feel I’m at a great transition of myself right now and I’m tryna decide which direction is of my nearest truth! I always figured myself to have an excellent sense of direction but truthfully I feel sort of Lost and Low on Gas! So this writing is my attempt to ask my reader for help on some direction and clarify for myself that “YOU ARE HERE” on my Life Map.
I hate to convey myself as a Melancholy MF but I’m truly a Melancholy MF!! I’ve become so apathetic towards Life that I feel it has become a hindrance on the sustain of any of my life’s current positivity. I like to consider myself “HONEST TO GOD” this one of my prided characteristics or personal descriptions, but In accordance with that conviction…. I honestly to my god don’t give a Fuck about anything outside of MY SON’s necessities. I lack a sincere Reverence for my Life and I don’t feel a natural motivation to gain any.
My true Motivant and Purpose for my Life is the pursuance of reparation of MYSELF as a whole. From Spiritual to financial, from emotion to psychological. In this direction I have developed an uncommon conscience of self. I believe In order to find out where you’re going you have to first figure out where you are. This is not an easy thing to do and I fear myself to be in great delay of progress In the constant attempt to figuratively “FIND MYSELF” I even find it discouraging at times that as I make the smallest of progress Socially I feel as If i become unstable in the transition and will ultimately compromise the progress to reestablish “WHERE AM I” with myself. I hate that I have difficulty establishing a PROGRESSIVE sense of SELF as I…PROGRESS! I honestly feel so much negative polarity in progressive transition that I descend upon my direction in order to NEUTRALIZE my unstable perceptions.
This Is Where I’m at. As I said my purpose for myself is to pursue the reparation of MYSELF as a Whole. This Is MY Drive. And it is a heavy 8cylinder drive as I am very adamant in my progressive beliefs but AS I Examine MYSELF INTERNALLY these convictions are derived from compensatory perspective and I consistently find MYSELF in back in NEUTRAL. My Such convexious drive has no transmission. smh. I hope to My God that the purpose I have directed for MYSELF is not limited to Just the actual pursuance of reparation but the ultimately I attain these reparations of Myself as a Whole I am able to convey to my son, My Gang, and the young boyz of my similar derives or likeness, what a GOOD BALANCED MAN should be and be able to help them cultivate for themselves and their children a good balanced and PROGRESSIVE direction. This is where I’m at “I AM HERE” I pray to my god to sustain the transition from NEUTRAL to PROGRESSIVELY BALANCED!