I just Wanna Win.
The more I read the more I want to write. I feel so deeply but I feel deepest that I dont express it. I dont know how. My lil writing is the closest thing I have to a full expression of myself. Im so fuckin moody on the inside. I really feel myself “swinging” from mood to mood. I wish I knew how to be more productive of my talent. I dont wanna do shit but Win. Im tired of grindin to grind to grind some more. I need to see the fruition of my thoughts and my ideas. I hate to be a nigga that just think about big shit, talk about big shit and never do shit. I really need something big to happen for Mark. Im too tenacious an internal persona, I feel like a fuckin volcano and I really feel a boil inside me that either need to cool or erupt. I cant play cool when Im hot no more. I cant play cool when I feel cold no more. I feel icey as fuck right now. I dont wannna fake socialize with no fuckin body right now. I just wanna be Mark. I just wanna Win.