Monthly Archives: September 2012

Letterz to Na’Sham #1

Dj lil Gritz aka ShameBaby aka lil 3chainz

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I don’t usually put a date on my lil shit but nigga today is 9/26/2012 lol. My baby boy just turned 5 and today he read his first paragraph. not no baby doc seuss type shit either check him out….

“Heat is a form of energy that is created by atoms moving. Even things that are cold have some heat energy because their atoms move, albeit slowly. When we feel cold, we jump up and down for warmth to get our atoms moving! Heat energy is also known as thermal energy. Many types of energy like light, chemical, sound, and nuclear can be converted into heat energy by increasing the speed of the atoms in the object producing the energy.”

I never really considered myself a good dad in my own mind, but today I realized Im a great fuckin dad. I let my dude be himself! Im raising my lil nigga to be himself and hell never have to feel by himself. I been teaching my lil dude to be a Man since birth. some niggas never get that lesson. I’ve always had the determination that im stickin with my baby since he came out but some shit aint been easy as some dudes make it look. I really been having a hard time at certain points.

But today’s point really shows what the fuck a nigga tryna do and epitomize what the fuck im tryna be about for my lil dad. I just want to give him the best opportunity to make a success for himself and of himself while being himself without having to do the shit by himself. I got yo back baby to the best of my fucking ability, understanding, and tolerance. lol. Im Go boy its hard for me to sit still but I swear my God Yahweh Im trying for you Shame. I love u homie. keep up the good work thanks for making me feel like a real dad. a good dad. your dad. and  a worthwhile person. I appreciate it and keep learning growing and applying your knowledge. 100

grittty tHeFuckinGritz  #Shampopz

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Men Address Men Directly

Men Address Men Directly

I think this is a simple and straight forward statement of how Men should govern themselves. Ive worked in several different Barbershops since I was 19 and they’ve never been short of two things conversation and confrontation. I think both of these are healthy exercise in moderation. But lately I notice that Men are gradually moving more and more toward the conversation without the confrontation.

So instead of directly addressing each other of their particular issue, they indirectly converse their concerns of each other in each of other Men’s absence. I think that’s girly. Its sad to hear Men talk so openly of other men in their absence only to change the subject in his presence.  Its sad to hear Men Object of another Man’s character in his absence only to concur with him in his presence.

As for me I dont even like to participate in these type of conversations. I feel so lonely in my abstinence from gossip and gossip men. It is impossible to avoid but Its simply a standing statement not to entertain the indirect discussion of a man who aint even there! I feel that the themed principle is simple “Men  should address Men directly.”

Im just Being Mark

I find a way to push away from people with apprehensions of me. because Im all of that shit they apprehensive of.       I dont wanna hurt anybody I just wanna be Mark. love me or leave me…for real. _greyBoyShit

Mark Anthony Howard

I try to be considerate to people and adjust my depths accordingly,  but Shit sad cause I drown alot of mfkz in my shallow ends.

Im highly aware of how uncomfortable I make some people in there uncertainty of me. Im just not the type to disclose everything to everybody. So this is my confession. Im uncomfortable around alot of people. I cant stand when people stand to close to me at the grocery store. I truly need three feet. So when people get too close to me I get uncomfortable and do something or say something to back them off or away. It is deliberate and intentionally but its just genuine. Sometimes I feel like I lose alot of potentially great friendships but most times I feel I filter alot of potentially bitter friendships. I find that the people I scare away are mainly scared people anyway. I dont need that. I don’t need anybody’s apprehensions around me. I’m just being Mark.

Nothing can stop Mark from being Mark. I dont care if it Kills me. This is who I am this is who I have to be. Ive really lacked the opportunities to be anything else,  Truthfully I wouldnt even want to be any other way. The shit is current event to actually feel a superior partiality to being who the fuck I am. Being me has always been my vice now I feel like the shit is my endowment, The reward for enduring through me all those years is being Me this year. Im like a fuckin Rock in relation to my fortitude. I wont budge off shit. I dont give a fuck what nobody say in oppose of what the fuck Mark wants. “If you aint for me… Ignore me” is my favorite quote of myself. I rather be left alone to figure how to compensate my faults than be accompanied by somebody else mouth rambling about irrelevant shit.

Ive seen Nosey people tune in to something they wanna hear so hard. In my mind im the exact contrast; I tune the fuck out on shit I dont wanna hearso hard. This funny nigga that come in the shop got this crazy exWife I told the nigga I couldnt even fuck with her, this the advice he gave me… “when in doubt … Tune it out” haha, funny as fuck huh. Real Shit tho. I truly have trained my ears to only her shit that is applicable productive and relevant to myself and my perspective. If I cant learn nothing from it I dont ever want to hear that shit.

This is my same approach to people I feel. If I cant learn from you I cant, I wont, and I dont, want to fuck with you. I dont wanna waste my time and I dont wanna waste your time. I swear to god I only have productive relationships. And its absolutely because I have such a disdain for trivial shit. If you not about nothing and Im fuckin with you then Im not about nothing so we not about nothing! I just can even be that type of person I dont have the energy to play like that, Im 28, not 8. So all that to say The fastest way to shake somebody that dont fit with you is to keep showing em the part that dont fit. say or do some shit they dont like and people that aint supposed to be there get the fuck gone.  just kinda of a lil filtering process for me. I love to hard and unconditonal not to have that reciprocated in my relationships. I like to be an advocate of everyones true Self so in all my friendships I need/demand the allowance to be all of me. if You uncomfortable with some of me then get the fuck away from all of me or give me my space when Im being that some. I promise to god its nothing personally malice towards you…. Im just Being Mark

DNC 2012- Michelle Obama and President Clinton