Shit aint even that bad. You just have to lean upon God sometimes. I used to be so stuck on hustle Boy shit that I actually started believing in myself and my grind more than my God. In reality hustle-shit became my god. And any dummy could tell u how Long that shit last. Idolatory come in alot of forms. I feel that alot of niggas my age fall in love with flossing and broadcasting themselves as a particular image. Truth is balling is not realistic all the time. Deeper truth is the shit aint even practical sometimes.
I Guess its just a young niggas vice to want to succeed by any means neccessary. I can identify with that closely. But what I cant identify with is the necessity to portray as successful in your struggles or to portray more successful than actual.
I just feel that I can only portray of myself what is actual of myself. Shit life is life; sometimes you up, sometimes you down. Sometimes im rich, this time im broke. Lol.
I dont when see the shame in it. Shame on broke a nigga trying to act like he aint though. Just get it how you live. Focus on better and keep growing. Broke ain’t broken. There’s always a fix. Especially when your focus on fixing the actual issue and not the just the presentation.